for fear of failure,
or fear of mistake,
the feelings of shame,
fueling the fires of inner hate.
damn you for the torturous feelings you stir in my soul,
and the pain you breathe in to my lungs.
sucking out all the oxygen from the world i thought i could believe.
you put things into perspective,
a perfect haze.
drowning in deception of such a ridiculing faith.
faint of heart and lost in my mind.
you welded the bars and sealed the cage.
shut me out of myself, yet locked me in.
thoughts running,
running wild, but not going anywher.
moving slow,
but everything's so fast,
overwhelming feelings,
inflicted by my past.
every night when i'm asleep,
i sleep in a state of madness,
screaming, crying, fighting,
i think just to survive.
but only if all this wildness could just disappear,
like raindrops on a fire,
i'd breathe an easy breath tomorrow,
exhale every ounce of sorrow,
the sorrows of my soul.
when I write I hear beats in my head, I write to the rhythm of my internal drum. sweet like sugar, and raw to the bone. ;RAWSUGAR;
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