ramblings..

imma lil misfit
teapot

tip me over
and watch me blowww!


FUCKIN WILD ONE
baby- u can hate me
but u know u will never find a love like me
fuck like me
no one could ever -
no way
never.
BEE. ME.
i have fire that burns so hot
so hot it sires into you
brands me on your soul
ill consume you
deep down
in the pitt of your stomach
ill make you sick.

intervenus
you cant get rid of it
choking
on yourself
ITS ME
LET ME OUT

The New New Feelings

oh how times have changed, 

the life we had, 

the life so lame,

breakin in a new game, 

and the smile of newness, 

lasts for days, 

feelin the sun in a million ways, 

i feel it all when your smile i raise.

 

this old sore spot-torn up-emptied, 

and beginning to refill, 

but this time its a holy type of happiness, 

that warms through the warn down tissue, 

bringing out the best in me, 

all the smiling strains my cheeks,

 

so far all is crystal clear,

better both in intellect,

and mental stimulation,

the heat I feel beneath the sheets,

makes me crave sensation,

 

the closer that we become,

increases my tempatation,

but i will hold back my minds burning contemplations,

not to taint this solid thing,

this hopeful aspiration,

and as this new smile regime,

simmers in my heart and dreams,

i'll have to to hold my breath it seems,

to make this something worthy of gold stars.

piece of mind, please...

for fear of failure,
or fear of mistake,
the feelings of shame,
fueling the fires of inner hate.
damn you for the torturous feelings you stir in my soul,
and the pain you breathe in to my lungs.
sucking out all the oxygen from the world i thought i could believe.
you put things into perspective, 
a perfect haze.
drowning in deception of such a ridiculing faith.
faint of heart and lost in my mind.
you welded the bars and sealed the cage.
shut me out of myself, yet locked me in.
thoughts running,
running wild, but not going anywher.
moving slow,
but everything's so fast,
overwhelming feelings,
inflicted by my past.
every night when i'm asleep,
i sleep in a state of madness,
screaming, crying, fighting,
i think just to survive.
but only if all this wildness could just disappear,
like raindrops on a fire,
i'd breathe an easy breath tomorrow,
exhale every ounce of sorrow,
the sorrows of my soul.

dreams of appocolyptic seasons

buy more,
choke more,
laugh more,
die more,
breaking into a scene of dreaded rage,
weakness, over populates,
indulgent,
selfish fucks,
the ones who we "must trust",
i watch the city ablaze,
infested with jerks,
and political villains,
i watch the ash rise into the air,
only to disappear,
amen to this destruction,
with them gone,
i see clearly,
i now see my feet beneath me,
it brings me to life,
i raise my head slowly,
and take in the view,
the desolute streets,
in shambles,
pieces,
smell the sweet and crisp surrender,
never breathed an air fresher,
i turn around to walk away,
euphoric on my present state.
and then from the sky,
cracks the thunder,
and rain falls down
and makes me wonder,
should i have built an arc?
i laugh to myself
but its no joke,
the rain keeps pounding,
pounding down,
swallowing me whole,
crushed under the pressure,
to the top i rise,
just as broken as those i despised,
and then my eyes
f
l
u
t
t
e
r open,
alone in my room with,
tear stained cheeks,
and the pounding of my racing heart,
pounding,
pounding within me,
this is the love i have for my city.
cleanse this evil world,
i say.
before all the beauty fades,
fades
away.

Like Clockwork

brick WALL,
curtain call,
free speech,
lets breathe,
face facts,
look back,
downsize,
upgrade, 
rejuvenate,
f
  a
     l
      l again.
same page,
nothings changed,
walk away,
stop tracks,
backspin,
same song,
NO love!
give UP!
breakdown,
build it up,
fruitful wishes,
b o u n t i f u l kisses,
lazy sundays, 
your arms,
my dreams,
get crushed.
clockwork.  

Amerikan Lyfe.

Clubmen

Kungfu Hustle
time out.
now S h u f f l e
away from your constant badgery
woops, there goes gravity
try and brag to me
back spin
heel kick
sachey away.
no i do not want to play
bring out the big guns
and ill blast you to pieces
is that how you'd talk to your nieces?
doubtful.
disrespect another girl,
cuz this one ain't down to tango.
grapple
or grind.
now my words could kill you
keep that in mind
and touch me there
one
more
time.

1,2...

is it frustration or only three
three little words
they pulse in your veins
and choke you from the inside out
you let them sink in and then
1,2... YOU'RE OUT...
no time to hit a home run
just done, done and done.
and to think we came so close this time
to finishing what we begun

and you want me to quit?

ME?
FUCKIN ME?
i cant quit
i never give up
never give up like rubber so tough
rebound back
faster then a cadillac
any type
cream, pink or navy,
id treat you better if you were my baby
rock you
knock you like the infant you claim-to-be
lie to you
until you obey me
wicked wicked
jungalist

coming for the concrete love you run with
followin you with my lust
its trusted
the shot i shoot will leave you dusted
bang bang
boom
and its time to reload
one more time
to let the record slow
and then we goooo
on
on
and on to the next one.
im too crazy to quit.
imma killen em bitch.

its not me its you.

its not a problem
its a weakness

i run from trouble
that lives beneath us

not within me
oh no
not ever

i am a child always forever
i cant stand to be so selfish

and yet when the need kicks in
you know it overwhelms us
say you can
say you wont
tell me that i'll over dose
over dose myself on you
you
not me
never me....

its not a problem its a weakness
if i admit it
youll never believe us
if i say sorry
ill never retreive us
if i just stop...

ill never believe me...

its not a problem
im not a problem
i have no problems
only weakness.

fights, lights, breakups, handshakes

you said some things, i said some things, and now look where we are? just two lost souls swimmin in a fish bowl, year after year. now how have we found, found ourselves here.
miscommunication, ending in sadness
leading to the fight
that ends it all.
piece by piece,
small flecks of the red paint,
that once was love,
once so bright,
flake away,
chipping away to sever the bond,
fear and sadness,
confusion.
madness,
distaste, regretful behaviour
and now it leaves us here.
looking over our shoulders,
into the eyes,
that used to hold such precious gems.
parting ways
endless days.
all to lead to false intimacies,
and the handshakes that will never bring back the feelings that once serged in the veins,
cold,
limp,
meaningless handshakes.

Life

life threw me lemons,
i made lemonade,
i poured it into cups,
and gave em away

life threw me sand,
i built a sand castle,
i built a dungeon,
and the prisoner was me

life threw me bricks,
 i broke down,
i built a foundation,
and i started to breathe

life threw me ashes,
i swept them up,
i climbed up a mountain,
and i set them free.

i love bass

KICKDRUM
BASS
BOOM!
bouncin off the walls of my room
kick DRUM
BASS
BOOM.
bouncin off the walls of my room.
hardstyle
 techno
weavin through the threads of my clothes
dubstep
electro
dancing through the souls of my shoes
KICK DRUM
BASS
BOOM
bouncin off the walls of my room
KICK DRUM
BASS
BOOM
bouncin off the walls of my room
if heaven was on earth
id say this is as close as it gets
the bass inside your body
active control
it takes you away
and...
KICK DRUM
BASS
BOOM
bouncin off the walls of my room
KICK DRUM
BASS
BOOM
bouncin off the walls of my room
winding up
take it away
KICK DRUM
BASS
BOOM
bouncin off the walls of my room
the noise gets LOUDER
the bass gets STRONGER
your heart starts rattlin'
and...
KICK DRUM
BASS
BOOM
bouncin off the walls of my room
KICK DRUM
BASS
BOOM
bouncin off the walls of my room!